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Friday 31 July 2015

Self reflection based on BBTs08

Sorry that this is RANT and may contain the 8th season finale of The Big Bang Theory series spoiler....
Read only if you are ok with rants and the spoiler.
NO. Seriously..
You have been warned.

I think some things in life must be thought of thoroughly. Like how Sheldon was abt to propose to Amy but she broke down from wariness? Some people might find themselves in situation that they love one another, they care so much, but at the end, if the other party is unapproachable, things will get down soon...

I want to be like Howard, a silly corny romantic,
I want to be like Raj, believing that there is THE ONE out there for me.
I want to be like Leonard, who is loyal and honest.
I want to be like Sheldon, who weighs his options and thinks of the future.
I want to be like Bernadette, who has a lion's heart.
I want to be like Amy, who has patience and understanding.
I want to be like Steward, thankful of all the chances in life
I want to be like Penny, who knows that you only live once...

I know that all these things are fictional and they could not all be in one person's character but damn, I wish to have those characters... Taking all the best out of these people, maybe my love, life and decisions would be made better, would be nurtured better and would be understood better...

The BBT series taught me a lot about love, and IDK why, after watching the 8th Season Finale, I felt like crying.

I feel for these characters' feelings and behaviours.
Penny flirted a lot, but stood loyal for Leonard to return because she loves him.
Leonard had a fling but it was un-intentional and he knew his mistake.
Raj wanted a love that is connecting, where he could show who he really is.
Emily thought she found a man who enjoys her awkward weird taste in life.
Bernadette needs to act strong to cover her physique.
Howard is always a coward because he's afraid he'll hurt someone.
Amy just wanted to feel loved, and she's hurt constantly as Sheldon gave her problems in their love life.
Sheldon thought that everyone was fine with him, even Amy and is now befuddled on what to do.
Steward celebrated his birthday with friends, finally.

and those things they did were reflected on me somehow.
IDK what I'm writing at this point, but I wish.. I really do wish that when that one day come, I could look back and be proud with what I've achieved. No secrets, no regrets.

-Bee

Thursday 23 July 2015

I'm an official Cosplayer!

Dear Diary, last March, I'm officially a cosplayer!

My first official character was Megurine Luka from Vocaloid!!!

I was so excited!!! I went for a mini event in my area for a test run with my costume :D It was terrifying! I mean the experience of people looking at you intently was very unnerving. However, I thought, when can this happen again? I'm not exactly still young... So I YOLO-ed to go for another mall-sized event.

This time, the participants were over 50 people and its very crowded. I did not have anyone with me, so I brought a mini bag with me. It was very tiring between scooting down to put my bag on the floor and continued by fixing my long wig before every photo!

I crazily did this for two days! TWO!!! I have no idea what corrupted my mind to make me that brave! After both days, I went home trembling!

They were after effects of my nerves breaking down after 5 hours roaming in the mall with no friends and no one I knew AND BEING A TOTAL NEWBIE!!! Plus, my super steep Gothic boots killed my feet!!!

Yeah, it sucks if you don't have a friend who could help taking photos of you....

On the third day, I went as a seifuku girl... It was somehow creepy though... There was this one uncle who followed me around for a while and whenever I look at him, he will smile and pull up his camera to take photo. I'm very sure it was me he took photo of... I even met him in front of a restaurant we were dining in after me and my popular friend escaped the crowd to the third floor!!!